Kether's Formlessness

I am preparing to teach the Intro to the Hermetic Qabalah in Missoula, MT. I will be surfing through all the Sephiroth and their energies while teaching the class - most markedly, through a dynamic meditation/visualization Tree of Life journey. This journey gives form to the Sephiroth - all the while I am in formless Kether. What a great paradox. What a great challenge!
‘Act as if the maxim of your action were to become, through your will, a general natural law.’ Immanuel Kant

Kether's Refinement Process

I am seeing that anything that is not vibrating at a high vibration will show up in my life as a chaotic situation - or, at the very least, an unpleasant awareness. I am finding that I have more courage to examine my own motives - that I come from the Light more that I realize. And that is a good thing.
‘It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves.’ Edmund Hillary

Kether's Awakening in Me

I felt so overwhelmed today. I could see/feel/understand the motives of the actions of the people in my life. Not motives in a negative way. I could see/feel/understand exactly where they were coming from - where their fears lay. How they were just protecting their vulnerabilities through their actions. Then I started to receive clarity on conditions in my past. I am coming to a point of forgiveness. It is as if the weight of resentment and anger and revenge is just too heavy a burden now.
'Knowledge can be communicated, but wisdom cannot. A man can find it, he can live it, he can be filled and sustained by it, but he cannot utter or teach it.’ Hermann Hesse

Kether and Mindfulness

I seek greater and greater awareness of Self. I am constantly in questioning mode about my motives and actions. I finally understand why. The more I realize about myself, the greater my freedom. I seek my lessons and in so seeking, I find greater gifts. My joy becomes untethered.
'All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.’ Walt Disney

Kether and my Viewpoints

Beyond Kether is the Unknowable and Unknown of Ein, Ein Soph, Ein Soph Aur. I feel the pull of this Unknown - in a way that is drawing me out of old ways of being. I am seeing some response patterns to anger that are surprising me. I grew up in an very anger-filled home environment so I have had plenty of patterns to choose from.
'Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.' Albert Einstein

Kether, Oneness, Point of Light

I am trying to grasp the ungraspable. I am trying to be one with Kether as the Point of Singularity - of Oneness. In seeking this oneness with Kether, I have been seeing situations around me as manifestations of chaos - the opposite to me of the Point of Singularity. Kether, I feel, is a point of beingness. Well, there is the crux of my dilemma. Beingness. I am usually into 'doingness' or really 'busy-ness.'
'If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.' Maya Angelou

Kether, Its Oneness

I so felt the alienation of fear last night (due to believing the media). I dove into Kether this morning - seeking the remembrance of my unity with the One. I would love to hide in Kether, being one with the Divine. And I know that I wouldn't stay there. I would be distracted - by the different moments of life experienced outside of Kether. And I can keep going back to Kether to be reminded of my own Godness and co-creation of my world.
'There is no such thing in anyone's life as an unimportant day.' Alexander Woollcott

Kether and Anger

I am working with the anger from my relationship with my mother. I have always intellectually 'reviewed' my anger and resentments with my mother (who has passed). This time, I was floored by its depth. I don't want to forgive her - at least not yet, not now. I know Kether's Light is shining brightly on my anger. This anger feels sharper. My consciousness about this anger is shifting. The anger is more real on a physical level.
“The truth will set you free. But first, it will piss you off.” Gloria Steinem

Kether and Teaching

I am teaching a class (yesterday & today) in learning how to consult the Akashic Records. Being in Kether and being present to the students really heightened my awareness to the God in each of my students. And, of course, the God-being-Lillian was able to express compassion and non-judgment. I was, and am looking forward to today as well, reflecting the magnificence and their potential as I experience mine.
‘The Delphic oracle said I was the wisest of all the Greeks. It is because I alone, of all the Greeks, know that I know nothing.’ Socrates

Kether and My Fate

For as long as I can remember, I understood God to be expressing Herself as Lillian. I understood this not in its fullest magnitude. Every so often, I would be able to grasp this. I would be able see that I am the co-creator of my fate.
'God asks no man whether he will accept life. That is not the choice. You must take it. The only question is how.' Henry Ward Beecher

Kether and My Self-Image

My fears of abandonment have been like whispers in the wind. I have for so long seen myself as 'abandonable,' stemming from a childhood abandonment trauma. I have also felt abandoned by God. So who am I as God expressing Herself as Lillian? I can now glimpse at how I have been abandoning myself.
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Maria Robinson

Observations through Kether

In my observations yesterday, it was easy for me to see where others could have acted differently. It was not so easy for me to stop the words coming out of my mouth. I could see others limitations - and couldn't stop my words.
‘Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.’ Dr. Seuss

Kether and Bliss

In meditation this morning I slipped, every so gently and ever so fleetingly, into bliss. There is not much more to say about my Kether experience today. Bliss is bliss.
'Take it easy - but take it.' Woody Guthrie

Kether, Me and the Unmanifest

Kether is unmanifest. I am and can only be manifest. Yet I had an insight this morning that my passion for life is unmanifest. It drives me - this passion to experience all I can be. This passion comes before the force of Chokmah or the form of Binah in my life. My passion is this knowingness that we all are expressing our magnificence and perhaps we only need a reminder of that.
'We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing.' R. D. Laing

Kether

I traveled from Chokmah to Kether yesterday - and I woke filled with fear and hopelessness. I feel like I am standing naked in front of God. No games, no character defects, no distractions. Only me - feeling a bit less than in the magnificence of Kether. I know that this is only temporary. I know that I am God manifesting as Lillian. So I know that the God in me, Kether, will prevail. And hope and courage will come charging up to me just as the Knight of Swords in the Rider-Waite Tarot deck.
‘The only difference between a flower and a weed is...Judgment’ Anonymous

Chokmah's Expectancy

I woke up reflecting on the Tarot card, the Fool. It is the Path from Kether to Chokmah. I feel that sense of expectancy - of being close to the edge - seeking the trust to jump off. Since I am ascending the Tree of Life, I feel I have to find the trust to face my God - and my Self.
‘It is the direction and not the magnitude which is to be taken into consideration.’ Thomas Troward

Chokmah's Urging

I feel the urging of Chokmah. Its force certainly has not diminished. Chokmah's force now feels more like an urge to create - to move forth - rather than a drive to do so. I still see how my thoughts can interfere with right action, that I get too involved in the why or how to do and not enough in the doing.
‘Better to do something imperfectly than to do nothing perfectly.’ Robert H. Schuller

Chokmah

This morning I realized how mercurial I am. I like a lot of movement in my life. And almost instantly after I claimed that awareness, I saw the dance of my life. I have sometimes rushed through parts of my life tripping over emotions and situations just to get past them. I believe this was the force of my ego. I need the force of Chokmah to move through my dance steps (or perhaps at times move me through the dance).
‘Only he who does nothing makes a mistake.' French Proverb

Chokmah & the Zodiac

The planet or Mundane Chakra associated with Chokmah is the Zodiac. The Zodiac is the path of constellations that the Sun crosses during the year. I am Capricorn, Leo rising, Moon in Taurus. Being in Chokmah has given me promptings from the other Zodiac signs. Pluto, in my 12th House, has been influencing how compassionately I look at my life - and demonstrate in it.
'I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy permanent planet.' Jack London

Chokmah

Kether is the Point and Chokmah is the Line from that point. And I feel that I am traveling along the Line, getting closer to Kether. There is a comfort in that. There is a growing sense of expectancy within me. I am not sure what I am expecting....
'Things do not change; we change.' Henry David Thoreau

Chokmah's Sacredness

I am feeling a bit holy. It is as if the reflection of Kether is shining upon me. I am beginning to think differently about my goals and my service. As I re-adjust my self-esteem, I find a growing awareness of how good my life is. It doesn't stem from what I have - it is from who I am becoming.
'Live every act fully, as if it were your last.' Buddha

Chokmah and my Will

I was playing with my fluorite pendulum this morning. I haven't used one in a long time. I made it move in several different ways (back & forth, clockwise & counterclockwise). Suddenly I thought of the force of Chokmah. Here I am, moving the pendulum - and if I can do this, then where is the force of my thoughts going? What am I putting my attention on - my force on? Which leads me to the thought that anything that is not working out in my life - I have put force on (or through)it in some way...not an exceptionally pleasant realization. And ever the optimist, this gives me hope that all can change very easily.
'Arriving at one point is the starting point to another.' John Dewey

Hebrew Alphabet

I have been doing a bit of studying of the Hebrew alphabet. Shinn attracts me the most. Shinn is path between Hod and Malkuth and that Path is also the Major Arcana card, Judgment. I see Judgment now as a release - an awakening. To me, Judgment is the opposite of Glamor. It is the ability to see clearly, which always leads me to an awakening of some measure.
'It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.' Ursula K. Le Guin

Chokmah - Forceful and Fanciful

I feel more creative - my thoughts are more fanciful - in the last 24 hours. I do not feel as afraid of Chokmah's force. I do not feel it as such an overwhelming, 'uncontrollable' force as I did at the beginning of this Chokmah journey. Although I do not feel in control of Chokmah's force, nor would ever assume I could be - I do feel in awe of Chokmah's magnificence. And I feel less resistance to its energies. Perhaps that is why I can feel the flow more.
'The most decisive actions of our life...are most often unconsidered actions.' Andre Gide

Almost caught some Wisdom

I realized this morning why going up the Tree of Life (again & again) is a life-long job (journey?). For one moment - only 15 minutes ago - I felt filled with Wisdom - the Wisdom in the force of Chokmah. Or is it the force in the Wisdom of Chokmah? And as soon as I said those words, the 'wise' thoughts left me. I think that I was trying to add a form to a realization....
'Only he who does nothing makes a mistake.' French Proverb

Chokmah's Force

Wow! Chokmah's energy is really ready to assist me in doing a clean sweep - when I let go of resistance. I was watching 'Good Will Hunting' last night with my husband, and when Shawn (Robin Williams) says repeatedly to Will (Matt Damon) that its is not his fault (his childhood circumstances/abuse). We both cried. I could feel a force within me helping me sweep clean guilt and shame. There is residue yet I feel a freedom. Chokmah's 'nudging' of its force has been stirring me up for 3 weeks - actually I felt sometimes like a plastic bag on the highway being buffeted about - and that is not the fault of Chokmah. It's the result of my resistances. I could finally feel how its force is benevolent.
'Things alter for the worse spontaneously, if they be not altered for the better designedly.' Francis Bacon

Chokmah's Virtues/Vices

When I woke up this morning, my brain apparently had been awake long before I opened my eyes. I felt as if I was in the throes of some of my character defects (reactive mode). And then I remembered that Chokmah is the virtue of Wisdom and has no Vice. So I breathed a sigh of relief. Chokmah is the reflection of Kether - so any vices of my own that I see I feel that I am having Light illuminate them for my benefit - so I may more clearly learn how expendable they are.
'As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.' John F Kennedy

Chokmah's Wake Up Call For Me

I grew up with a lot of anger. And now through Chokmah's force, I am observing anger and the way I can allow it to bounce off me or be absorbed by me. Unfortunately, I am finding the source of the anger is the determining factor as to whether the anger is absorbed or deflected. Consider the source....'Our acts make or mar us -- we are the children of own deeds.' Victor Hugo

Chokmah's Wisdom

Chokmah's attribute is Wisdom. I can't say I have been thinking more wisely since ascending to Chokmah. I can say that I have been more frequently able to see the falseness in my thoughts. I have to ask myself if this thought is true...or is it an opinion. I have discovered that I am living by a lot of opinions.
'The self is not ready-made, but something in continuous formation through choice of action.' John Dewey