Hebrew Alphabet

I have been doing a bit of studying of the Hebrew alphabet. Shinn attracts me the most. Shinn is path between Hod and Malkuth and that Path is also the Major Arcana card, Judgment. I see Judgment now as a release - an awakening. To me, Judgment is the opposite of Glamor. It is the ability to see clearly, which always leads me to an awakening of some measure.
'It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.' Ursula K. Le Guin

Chokmah - Forceful and Fanciful

I feel more creative - my thoughts are more fanciful - in the last 24 hours. I do not feel as afraid of Chokmah's force. I do not feel it as such an overwhelming, 'uncontrollable' force as I did at the beginning of this Chokmah journey. Although I do not feel in control of Chokmah's force, nor would ever assume I could be - I do feel in awe of Chokmah's magnificence. And I feel less resistance to its energies. Perhaps that is why I can feel the flow more.
'The most decisive actions of our life...are most often unconsidered actions.' Andre Gide

Almost caught some Wisdom

I realized this morning why going up the Tree of Life (again & again) is a life-long job (journey?). For one moment - only 15 minutes ago - I felt filled with Wisdom - the Wisdom in the force of Chokmah. Or is it the force in the Wisdom of Chokmah? And as soon as I said those words, the 'wise' thoughts left me. I think that I was trying to add a form to a realization....
'Only he who does nothing makes a mistake.' French Proverb

Chokmah's Force

Wow! Chokmah's energy is really ready to assist me in doing a clean sweep - when I let go of resistance. I was watching 'Good Will Hunting' last night with my husband, and when Shawn (Robin Williams) says repeatedly to Will (Matt Damon) that its is not his fault (his childhood circumstances/abuse). We both cried. I could feel a force within me helping me sweep clean guilt and shame. There is residue yet I feel a freedom. Chokmah's 'nudging' of its force has been stirring me up for 3 weeks - actually I felt sometimes like a plastic bag on the highway being buffeted about - and that is not the fault of Chokmah. It's the result of my resistances. I could finally feel how its force is benevolent.
'Things alter for the worse spontaneously, if they be not altered for the better designedly.' Francis Bacon

Chokmah's Virtues/Vices

When I woke up this morning, my brain apparently had been awake long before I opened my eyes. I felt as if I was in the throes of some of my character defects (reactive mode). And then I remembered that Chokmah is the virtue of Wisdom and has no Vice. So I breathed a sigh of relief. Chokmah is the reflection of Kether - so any vices of my own that I see I feel that I am having Light illuminate them for my benefit - so I may more clearly learn how expendable they are.
'As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.' John F Kennedy

Chokmah's Wake Up Call For Me

I grew up with a lot of anger. And now through Chokmah's force, I am observing anger and the way I can allow it to bounce off me or be absorbed by me. Unfortunately, I am finding the source of the anger is the determining factor as to whether the anger is absorbed or deflected. Consider the source....'Our acts make or mar us -- we are the children of own deeds.' Victor Hugo

Chokmah's Wisdom

Chokmah's attribute is Wisdom. I can't say I have been thinking more wisely since ascending to Chokmah. I can say that I have been more frequently able to see the falseness in my thoughts. I have to ask myself if this thought is true...or is it an opinion. I have discovered that I am living by a lot of opinions.
'The self is not ready-made, but something in continuous formation through choice of action.' John Dewey