The Magician's Tools

So, on Path 12, I leave Kether with all the tools I need. Now, my journey will be one of learning how to most effectively use these tools. I have left Kether, one level, complete. For me, the trust in God of The Fool is being morphed into the trust in myself. Do I have the courage to use these tools correctly? Is there a wrong way to use the tools? Being The Magician, I have in my life exactly what I have needed to get me to this point. Fair enough. So, if I want to be in a different place, I will have to use the tools differently.
‘What really matters is what you do with what you have.’ Shirley Lord

Magician and My Intention

My knee went out this morning (not the first time). And all my agendas and intentions for today went out the window. I envisioned The Magician and all his tools and I didn't have the centeredness (due to knee pain) to use them. I would have been reacting and trying to fix. I was anything or anywhere but in the moment. I realized that to be a magician, or The Magician, yo have to be, can only be, in the moment. Regular magicians do not do tricks in the future or the past. They are totally fixed in the moment.
'Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.' Buddha

Worth and This Work - Through the Eyes of The Magician

I had an amazing awareness while sitting in the dentist chair yesterday. I had a cap removed, in order to be replaced. Tears streamed down my face as the cap was removed. The trauma of the tooth injury of over 30 years ago was released. And what came up was 'what am I worth?' Not in money. In what I had brought into life. I got that ALL that I have in my life, I have brought into my life. I am The Magician. I have all the elements of creation. All in my life has been created from my choices. Only, until yesterday, most of these choices have been made with varying levels of fear. I have feared that people will find out that I have no worth - that I have to keep doing, to be of value, to be of worth.
Sitting in the dentist chair, I kept seeing The Magician card.
'If you want things to be different, perhaps the answer is to become different yourself.' Norman Vincent Peale

The Magician

I am still working on Trust and have to go within to find it. But when I study The Magician card, and see the 4 symbols, the 4 elements and am brought without to find the Trust. The Magician's arm positions remind me of 'as above, so below.' So, playing Devil's Advocate, does God trust me?
'To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone.'
Reba McEntire

Path 12

Path 11 (and all that it offers me) certainly intensified its presence in my life in the last few days. I am glad to be on Path 12 with The Magician. I am facing such trust issues with someone I have believed in for over 23 years. This is rocking my concept of self. This issue is making me take a hard look at who I say I am - and what are my founding principle and beliefs. Actually, I do feel like I have jumped off the cliff as The Fool and am still in free fall. So I humbly accept the Path of The Magician. What comforts me in this moment is that The Magician is prepared. He has all four symbols, all four elements, there in front of him for his use.
'We can't plan life. All we can do is be available for it.' Lauren Hill

The Fool and Trust Issue

I sent an email to someone Sunday. And the response that I received really hurt. I felt vulnerable and misunderstood. I had to see where maybe I was standing at the cliff's edge. I didn't think that there was a risk element to my email. But the response certainly had me of the brink of having to trust who I am and what my motives were. How can I say that I am in the right. WE all live through our perspectives. The other person's perspective of my email has a right to be expressed. I am especially grateful that a friend intervened to remind me that I hadn't done anything wrong. So I was able to walk away trusting in myself more strongly.
'Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out.' Jack Buck

Aleph and Creation

When I draw the Hebrew letter, Aleph, I draw it seeing the essence of 'as above, so below.'I was reversing, 'as above, so below' to 'as below, so above.' And then I turned Aleph upside down. And I saw that the slash (for want of a better word) is like a veil. The top 'foot' or 'arm' is smaller than the bottom one. When I turned the letter upside down, I had an awareness that it takes so little Divine energy to create. It is how we cross the veil(s) to manifest that we need to grow the energy - hence going down the Tree of Life, to build the force, the momentum, to physically create from the Divine creative energy.
'Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.' Anais Nin