From Kether to Tipharet

What I am 'grocking' the most from my Path of Gimel (from Kether to Tipharet) is a better grasp and understanding the way of the Middle Pillar. I do not hope to digest this Path fully. Qabalah is a way of life. Pathworking is allowing me a clarity about my fears. It would be really nice not to have any fears - but then what fun would there be in this dimension? Love. of course, is the antithesis. And have I not created my world to use my fears to bring me to greater levels of love? (I think I just surprised myself.)
'It is not light that we need, but fire; it is not the gentle shower, but thunder. We need the storm, the whirlwind, and the earthquake.' Frederick Douglass

My Path Between Kether and Tipharet

As I travel from Kether to Tipharet, I am gaining a new perspective of the "I" that I am. I am in a deep process of forgiveness - looking at my world through my eyes, realizing its subjectivity. I can only change the outer by changing the inner.
"Every man takes the limits of his own field of vision for the limits of the world." Arthur Schopenhauer

Gimel, My Camel Path

I was contemplating the Path of Gimel. I was contemplating walking like a camel, which is what Gimel means. I am taking this quite literally. A camel's hoofs are designed for walking on sand and its body is uniquely designed, and has evolved, for the desert. So how have I evolved? What am I most efficient for? Uniquely designed for? My path in life is a path of service. So I am uniquely designed for the path I have chosen. As a Kabbalist, I have chosen to live the Tree of Life and all of its Paths.
'You have to be very careful if you don't know where you are going, because you might not get there.' Yogi Berra

High Priestess and Me

I seem to be challenged with the Path of the High Priestess. In my past, I can see a pattern of interrupt. When things were going well, I would interrupt with some kind or level of chaos. On the Middle Pillar Path of the High Priestess, I seem to be feeling my fears instead of letting go of them.
"The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder whether you are happy or not." George Bernard Shaw

The Path of Gimel

I am now on the Path of the Hebrew letter, Gimel. This is the path between Kether and Tipharet. Gimel is camel. And so I share be riding a camel for awhile. I am excited about the possibilities that await me on this path on the Middle Pillar. I am already feeling more balanced from being on the Middle Pillar. However, I have seen movies where people have ridden camels, and it dos not look too easy - and sand is not a flat surface. I shall be holding onto the reins with both hands.
'The miracle is not to fly in the air, or to walk on the water, but to walk on the earth.' Chinese Proverb

Magician on Path 12

I am experiencing great abundance. I amusing the Sephiroth to solve my problems. I am releasing them into and through the energies of the Sephiroth needed at teh time. I feel as if the Magician's tools are now available to me as never before. I feel like I am living the magical life.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" Mary Oliver

Trojan Virus in Malkuth

Malkuth is the physical. I am, and my world is, a result of my choices. I received the Trojan virus from someone I trusted. Being a Kabbalist, I affirm that nothing happens in my world without design. A Trojan virus holds destruction (of your operating system) as did the original Trojan horse (of a destroying army). I looked at what needed to start over in my life. What operating system in my life needed to be destroyed - so that it could be re-booted? I am now looking at my life as a business - what is profitable, right action and what is not. Thoughts produce after their kind - so am in in the red? And where?
‘Remember this, and also be persuaded of its truth - the future is not in the hands of fate, but in ourselves.’ Jules Jullerand