Magician on Path 12

I am experiencing great abundance. I amusing the Sephiroth to solve my problems. I am releasing them into and through the energies of the Sephiroth needed at teh time. I feel as if the Magician's tools are now available to me as never before. I feel like I am living the magical life.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" Mary Oliver

Trojan Virus in Malkuth

Malkuth is the physical. I am, and my world is, a result of my choices. I received the Trojan virus from someone I trusted. Being a Kabbalist, I affirm that nothing happens in my world without design. A Trojan virus holds destruction (of your operating system) as did the original Trojan horse (of a destroying army). I looked at what needed to start over in my life. What operating system in my life needed to be destroyed - so that it could be re-booted? I am now looking at my life as a business - what is profitable, right action and what is not. Thoughts produce after their kind - so am in in the red? And where?
‘Remember this, and also be persuaded of its truth - the future is not in the hands of fate, but in ourselves.’ Jules Jullerand

Intelligent Transparency on Path12

There is a great song in the musical, "Chicago" called "Cellophane" - at least I think that its the full title. In it, one the characters says that 'they look right through me, see right through me.' That is exactly how I feel. And my fear of Transparency, Intelligent or not, means that I have become invisible. And in my world, invisible has always equated with abandonable. This is a fear I am walking through as I walk this Path. And I am looking forward to the Divine Mother in Binah awaiting me with open arms.

Emotional Intelligent Transparency

I realized today that my feeling way of being has transformed to a thinking way of being. My usual way of being was to feel first, and think later. This led to many ill-conceived decisions. This Path 12 is allowing my emotions and feelings to become transparent to me. It is an interesting place to be - more of a challenge than anything else.
'Your life is what your thoughts make it.' Marcus Aurelius

Bet - Path of Intelligent Transparency

I am trying to get a grasp on the concept of Intelligence of Transparency, which is the name of Path 12. In my Qabalah Teacher's training, I did see a transparency to my own machinations. I did see very clearly, perhaps, too clearly, how easy it was to become judgmental. Perhaps, the deeper truth is to see how easily I became triggered by my own stuff. My triggers (fears of being abandoned and invisible)did become transparent to me. They helped me define my place in the world - sort of like a house for me to live in. And, I just realized, (coincidence?) that the Hebrew letter, Bet, translates as house.
"Home ought to be our clearinghouse, the place from which we go forth lessoned and disciplined, and ready for life." Kathleen Norris

The House of the Hebrew letter, Bet

I have just finished training to become a Qabalah teacher. The training was incredible. My teacher, Laurie Huber (Gundnason), is a real gift. Please do check out her site, www.7thMysteryschool.com.
I filled my house with so many good things. I had challenges. I was triggered. And, really, that is what Qabalah is all a out. I used the Sephiroth on the Tree of Life to fill my house with great tools. I used the love of Tipharet, the 'I' to transcend my petty contrivances. I really saw that I could transcend (with spiritual work) any envy and jealousy and that my negative emotions are really contrivances. I saw that my attachments skewed my perceptions.

Gratitude for the Pagth(s) that I am on

I am in training to become a Teacher of the Qabalah. I am in Malkuth (Path 10)and on the Pathworking Path 12, the Path of Hebrew letter Bet (Beit, Beth). Yesterday, I became so judgmental and resentful of another person. I think that it took the energies of all these Paths to help me reach the humility and teachability I needed. I basically was jealous. Being ascended into Malkuth, I saw what attention I wasn't getting - and not grateful for what I had received already. I am grateful it took less than one minute from jealousy/judgment/resentment to humility/teachability. I have been know to have to work on a resentment for quite awhile. So my turnaround time is vastly improving!
'Great things are done by a series of small things brought together.' Vincent van Gogh